`love me cause i love you.

Mother brought me out to buy new clothes yesterday. Reached home, changed and everything before rushing out to meet Ming Zhi. Planned to watch movie at Bugis, but the cinema there never show the flick. So, we went to town instead. Decided to watch the movie in Cineleisure. Saw 3R people outside the neoprint shop. As the tickets for the 7.45pm show was sold out, we bought tickets for the 9.55pm show instead. After buying the tickets, we walked to Lido and have our dinner there. Then, we walk back to Cineleisure to watch the show. Dragon Tiger Gates was quite okay luh. Took the last train back. Luckily there was still bus 60 for me to board at 12+am. Heh. Reached home, bathed and everything, and I went to sleep at 1am.

Have to wake up at 8.20am to get ready to go to grandma's aunt's house to pray respects to grandma and grandpa. Three years have gone so fast. I wonder anyone still remember grandma. I will never forget what happened on that day three years back then. I've never seen my guy relatives cry.. until that day. Feels like she's still there but she really isn't. I miss her dearly. Now that she's gone.. No one's talking about her anymore. Even if someone really talk about her, everyone else seems sad but I think they are just trying to disguise their sad faces with those stupid cheery grins or whatever shit. I can't help but to feel sad :(( Cause she's like the one who took care of my when my parents went to work. I really miss my grandmama :( How many tears wont bring her back again.

Been in a really bad mood for the past few days. Now too. I don't feel like going to school tomorrow. Headache. Argh.

Do you know that you owe me alot of lollipops? Where are all the lollipops?
You know what? Sometimes I really hate you. You never seemed to care. Whatever la. After that whole fucked up shit, you seem to have distant yourself from me. Don't reply my messages, heck. I don't care anymore. Everything's my fault. Ha. I wished that I've stop caring about all these stuffs since the very beginning.

Maybe just one last post?

Just today, my form teacher told us not to waste time on blogs and MSN and instead, use that time to study. Okay, I shall use the computer less and use my time to study more. Doesn't that sentence sounds familiar? If you noticed, I think I've been saying that for the past few months. But really, since when did I actually stop using the computer less and study more.

Okay, so, maybe I've decided to blog one last time before going on hiatus? I can't write good english, or rather, type. My vocab ain't that strong, so ya.

"Singapore school's curriculum contradicts the means of a healthy lifestyle" - YJ.

Human beings always manage to find ways to make themselves unhappy.

SheHe said she'she's right here
shehe seems so distant.
I know that her blog is refering to you. Like duh?
I dont know what that sentence was for. Its was like so random.
Sometimes I really want to blog alot, but its like I'm restricted and I can't blog about the things I want to blog :( If I say I'm happy, its like I'm telling a lie. And I can't say that I'm sad cause I'm really not. Maybe I think too much, but maybe that's cause I notice too much.
But anyway, I'm still glad that I told him that I like him. Haha(: Now I know who he likes! LOL.

Jing Yi says I don't look like a Chinese when I smile. Jing Yi says I don't even look like a chinese. Haha! When I ask him what I look like, he says : "
maybe malay/eurasian, malay chinese, angmoh malay or angmoh chinese. " LOL. What's the difference between malay/eurasian and angmoh malay? Isn't it like the same or something. Uhh, whatever! Haha.

I want to watch ALOT of movies.

Am I that unimportant?
Am I so insignificant?

Might not be blogging for the time being. Goodbye.

I asked you why and you voiced them out to me. You told me that some guys were always beside me. Look, I can't help it if most of my buddies are guys.

"but, to me, u don't draw a clear line between good friends and more than friends that sort of shit". And what were you trying to say? Hello, I know who are my pals and who's not. When I asked you what your problem was, you just said something that was, well.. I don't know how to put them in words. So you think that I'm this selfish insenstive person, but nah. You're always wrong. Why do you have to blame yourself for all the things that went wrong? Can't I be the one making mistakes? Forget about it. I couldn't care less anymore. You will never understand how I felt.

It's much better to face these kinds of things with a sense of poise and rationality.
Rather then fix the problems, we never solve them, it makes no sense at all. If this is what he wants, and it's what she wants, then why is there so much pain?

Stomach cramps and back aches.

Caught Pirates of the Caribbean with "shengsheng", "rosly" and two of his friends. Vany, Shirley and Dzul were suppose to watch too, but they didn't know that the show was at 9.30pm. They thought that the show starts at 7.50pm but what they didn't know was both the 7.50pm and 8.30pm show was full. Dzul went home, Vany and Shirley went somewhere else. Heh. I was the only girl there -.- Grr. It was a good movie although I don't really understand everything. I regretted not watching the first POTC. Ha. The movie ended at around 12am. Met "Tiggs" at interchange then walked together before I went into the cab.

I like to do Chemistry TYS. Ha. Physics TYS wasn't easy, but I'm going to practice on every questions so I'd get top for Physics in class. Hahaha! I like Maths remedial (: Cause when Mrs Hong teach, I understand better. Miss Leong teach, I dont understand :(( But nevertheless, I'm gonna try get at least a C5. I failed my first Maths common test. What disappointment. I could have passed! Careless mistakes, minus a total of 7 marks I believe.

I'm going off to sleep already. Toodles. Love.

I don't know how to start this post.

Thousands of things have been running inside of my mind. I seriously don't know where to start from. I feel angry. I am angry. When I'm angry, I feel like crying. And for what fucks is crying for? It doesn't make me feel any better. Wasting your tears over some minor stuffs? I'd rather use them to water the plants.

I'm angry. I don't know what to do anymore. I won't expect anything from you at all. No, not at all. Not anymore. Sometimes I really wonder if you meant what you said or sometimes you only say things just to make me happy and not hurt. The things you say, are they the truth, or are they just plain lies. You would have said that I didn't trust you, but no, I trusted you. And now you don't want to complete the things you say? Fine. Dont tell me anything. You tell that to me always and I felt sad and hurt. What if I tell that to you? Do you feel the same?
Water fills these open eyes.

Empty promises. Ha. Whatever.

Do you know you always make me cry. Do you care cause when you say you do, it feels as if you doesnt. If you want to stop hanging out with me or whatever, then just don't? If you don't even have the intention of sending me home, then why do you do it in the first place? I think you don't even cared that I cried. No. I always say that I don't care but you know I do right? Nevermind, I don't feel like talking to anyone right now. Even if I want to talk to you, you wouldn't want to talk to me. If things stayed the way they were like last Friday night, I supposed we wouldn't have quarreled. I don't want to quarrel, do you? I always feel so sad and I end up crying for I don't know what reasons. Maybe it's just because I never had a friend that I quarrel so much with. Will you still lend me your shoulders if I cry? Will you?
I'm just thinking negatively tonight.

I'm looking forward to Friday night.

After what seems like so long, I finally told him how I felt. Phew. I'm glad he took it lightly. Haha! Feels like I can finally breathe. It was just a crush, nothing much. Finally.

I hate facing the computer. Everytime I go online, I get sad.
I feel all emo. Boo. I want lollipop. Heh.

FYI, I dislike going home alone.
And Tiggs, for everyday I'm sad you're suppose to give me 1 lollipop right? What if I'm sad everyday. What if.
Grr. So now I'm telling you, I don't want to go home all by myself :(

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY KANG SHENG! :D

Can you keep MY secrets?
This post is so random. Ohwell. Love.

Miss Lee : The udder (don't know how to spell) is the breast of the cow.

Sunday morning rain is falling.
I like rainy days, especially on Sunday morning(afternoon) (:

I want to watch movies.

Ohwell, this is such a random post. I'm feeling grouchy cause I haven't eat my breakfast/lunch yet and I'm terribly hungry :(( And I have to eat chocolates for breakfast/lunch. Grrrr. Have a break, have a kitkat.

I was suppose to go to my tuition teacher's new house for her housewarming party. Cause Jasmine cannot make it, I don't want to go already. Ha. Jasmine is the only one I know who have the same tuition teacher as me. Ha.

Love.

Its a W810i

Are you jealous? HA, love.

Firstly, HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY HUI WEN! (:

* There's nothing wrong with this blogskin, you just need to scroll down to see the bottom part. The page looks as if it haven't been load fully, but no. You'll will just have to scroll down :) *

Headed down to Plaza Sing and watch Superman Returns with girl. The show was like 2 hours and 30 mins long. Waa, Superman is handsome! I want to stop bullets with my eyes too! Heh. Oh! And the stuffs in Spotlight amazes me. Haha!

Geography class was fun :) Haha! Miss Tang suddenly ask one girl who walked pass our class : " Why aren't you in your class right now " then Clement and some of the guys in the front thought that Miss Tang thinks that the girl was from our class. LOL. Only to find out that the girl was from Miss Tang's form class.
Clement : "We thought that you thought that the girl was from our class.."
Miss Tang : " Oh, so you think that I'm crazy? "
- Whole class was laughing away -

Something's troubling me.. But, oh well! You shouldn't affect your peers with your mood :D Hee. Be that cheery sunshine girl :DD

I'm starting to like Panic! At the disco.

I got tagged by Jasmineny to do this quiz or something but I'm just too lazy to do it.

Chocolates make me sick :( Been eating too much chocolates. Chocolates caused me to have stomach aches :(

HOLY COW. 91 NEW EMAIL MESSAGES. I haven't been checking my mails. Heh. Wait till it hit 100 messages, then, I'll delete them all. Ha. Don't even bother sending me chain mails cause I think it's such a waste of time reading them. And fyi, I HATE CHAIN MAILS!

Might be watching tonight's match. Portugal and Germany :D

Oh, and if you can't pronounce my name, just call me QJ or Jin :D

I think I'm deprived of sleep. I think that the lack of sleep is causing me to get terrible headaches every day :(( I can't concentrate when any of the subject teachers are teaching, nothing gets into my head. My mind is sleeping, but my eyes are open. Semi-concious? Maybe. Staring into the air? Maybe. Day-dreaming? Definitely not. Did you ever get to one point where your head hurts alot, you can't think, you're half-awake, you're stressing on alot of stuffs, there's alot of homework for you do complete, you're teacher is teaching and you feel like crying because your head hurts badly? Well, I did. Today hasn't really been a smooth-sailing day for me. Recess took forever to come. When Geography class was over, man, I was elated. I can hardly wait to go to the Den to slack, chill and rest with some other PSLs.

When school ended, I was feeling real excited because of changed of plans, we get to count the money again! Counting money was real fun :) Left school at around 6pm but I only reached home at around 8pm? Bus 10 was taking such a long time today. When I've finally boarded bus 10, I felt tired and sleepy, my head was pounding too. But I couldn't sleep cause whenever I closed my head, it was as if my head is going to fall frontward? There's this giddy feeling thingy going on.

Oh, and I've been waking up late and falling asleep during lessons for the past few days. And I don't really have appetite to eat anything :(( I feel sick but I'm not. Probably just the lack of sleep that's really causing all these?

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY RYAN!!(:

The PSLs are going to count the money again tomorrow cause they can't finish it today. But I doubt that I will be going anyway. Need to get home early to complete my homework. I feel sad cause I can't join them :(((

" Apple on a stick, makes me sick. Makes my heart goes shalalalala, shalala in the morning.. "

Okay, done. Love(:

Chocolate day is finally over. I can finally sleep for like 6 hours every night. Been sleeping real late at night, or should I say morning for the past few days. I'm so tired, physically and mentally. Sometimes, it sucks to know that you planned something for the whole school and some people just dont appreciate it. Maybe they should try being in our shoes. I strongly believe that the PSLs who stayed at the Ang Mo Kio station to collect tins were pissed off with some people. Anyway, lets not talk about that(: I'm soooooo proud of the sec threes! You guys were awesome! I love my batch :))

Chocolate day was like so happening! For the first time of my life, I saw Singapore's largest chunky kitkat bar, largest montage ever made and for the first time, I slept in a mall! There's a first to everything I guess? :)

I love the PSLs, but I love proj-teens more! YOU GUYS ROCK! I think, without you guys or the PSLs, my life would be waaaaay different from now :)

Every Temasekians should remember this day. July 4th, the launch of TMS socks. Heh, I quite like the socks. I like the grey part(: I'm going to buy the school socks cause I don't want to waste my time finding socks that are 2 fingers above the ankle bone.

Be proud to be a Temasekian.

That was so random. LOL.

I guess I was really tired, I slept during Chinese, PE and Maths. Can't really describe it as sleep, but my eyes were closed. I don't have the energy to write either. My head feels heavier as every minute passes by. Oh well.

I am starting to like Alive lessons now. I use to dislike Alive lessons cause I thought they were boring but now with Mdm Yeo teaching us Alive, I like it alot better. Some how or rather, she manage to knock some sense into my head and make me think.
Just today, she told us that she read some of our blogs and she was amazed with how well we could write(type). But I think she was refering to every bloggers in my class except for me cause firstly, she said that she doesn't read my blog. See my name but never click. That made me wonder why. Was it because my blog wasn't nice to read(I think my blog is rather boring) or was it just because she wasn't interested in me, but everyone else? Nah, its alright. But still, I'll be careful with what I blog about.

Okay, I was feeling rather happy when my juniors told me that Proj-teens will be counting all the money tomorrow and thursday and we'll be excused from homework time. But now, with news from Clara, I doubt we'll be counting the money anymore. Damn. Just when I was feeling excited and all..

Anyway, I HATE bengs, or rather, act-bengs? Damn bengs, who do they think they are? What's their problem? Like hello? Whats with the both of you? My friend and I sat at that place first right!? Think your voices loud then we're afraid? HA, heck NO. We're not wimpy sissies and we're not intimidated with your loud voices and those big hand actions or whatever you were doing while you guys were walking. I think you guys looks like over sized monkeys.
Annnnnd, why are you guys being such busybodies? We DONT EVEN KNOW YOU! Why do you care about where we are going? * I want to say the F word but I cant cause its bad * Oh yes, and why can't my friend and I talk to each other? What's with both of you? Again, I would like to ask, why do you guys care so much? Go and mind your own businesses.

There's something that's thumping in my head and its causing my head to hurt. I want to sleep early, I really do, but I can't. Lots of homework are waiting for me to do.

Hans is a "pink magical flying pony". LOL. All of a sudden, he starts telling me about bangla workers.

i am a pink magical flying pony says:
Bangalahdeshi workers are just misunderstood. they arent stupid.
they are totally aware fo their actions and really need to be beaten up and they need to have their asses set on fire and kill their families to be taught a lesson

And I go "oh".

I hope my father will get the w810i phone for me(:

I gotta go improve my English.

Love.