`love me cause i love you.

I don't know how to start this post.

Thousands of things have been running inside of my mind. I seriously don't know where to start from. I feel angry. I am angry. When I'm angry, I feel like crying. And for what fucks is crying for? It doesn't make me feel any better. Wasting your tears over some minor stuffs? I'd rather use them to water the plants.

I'm angry. I don't know what to do anymore. I won't expect anything from you at all. No, not at all. Not anymore. Sometimes I really wonder if you meant what you said or sometimes you only say things just to make me happy and not hurt. The things you say, are they the truth, or are they just plain lies. You would have said that I didn't trust you, but no, I trusted you. And now you don't want to complete the things you say? Fine. Dont tell me anything. You tell that to me always and I felt sad and hurt. What if I tell that to you? Do you feel the same?
Water fills these open eyes.

Empty promises. Ha. Whatever.

Do you know you always make me cry. Do you care cause when you say you do, it feels as if you doesnt. If you want to stop hanging out with me or whatever, then just don't? If you don't even have the intention of sending me home, then why do you do it in the first place? I think you don't even cared that I cried. No. I always say that I don't care but you know I do right? Nevermind, I don't feel like talking to anyone right now. Even if I want to talk to you, you wouldn't want to talk to me. If things stayed the way they were like last Friday night, I supposed we wouldn't have quarreled. I don't want to quarrel, do you? I always feel so sad and I end up crying for I don't know what reasons. Maybe it's just because I never had a friend that I quarrel so much with. Will you still lend me your shoulders if I cry? Will you?
I'm just thinking negatively tonight.

I'm looking forward to Friday night.