`love me cause i love you.

yay! i bought sims 2 nightlife already (:

hurhur(: so happy. 1st time taking premiere cab all by myself~ so fun. my 99th post today=) went to east coast with the rest of proj-teens and mr oh. got sun burnt, or should i say sun kissed? lol.

okay nvm, im having mood swings NOW. PMS. lol=)

damn. i wanna go to the Isreal exchange program!! i REALLY WANT TO GO! why cant my parents just be more open minded and encourage me in whatever i wanna do? and i think its too late to even join already. they're coming to Singapore next week. its too late.. just too late..

now i know why they dont let me join that program. cause they themselves havent had a chance to join all these programs when they were in their teenage years. they dont even fucking let me join when ive got the chance, but when's theres no more chance they will fucking regret it. ive read about parents like these in storybooks, never thinking that my own parents were like that too. fish those selfish senseless people. just because they dont have a chance, THAT DOESNT MEANS THAT I DO NOT HAVE MY OWN CHANCE. DAMN IT.

[ fuck the materialistic shit.. ]

no school today, stayed at home and watched mvp valentine. sooooooo nice.

at around 1.45, took taxi to raffles city, walked to city link, outside surfer girl shop to meet cherying. lol. cherying. james edward potter. cher ying. james edward potter. makes sense. not saying that she like him or anything lah. lol. his my 'neighbour'! lol. he only stay 2 blocks away from me! hurhur(: primary school friend~

then we went to walk around and shop. bought 2 shirts and 1 slippers from surfer girl shop. lol. $100.90 goneee.. then i took taxi to my cousin's house at around 5, and cher ying went home. hurhur(: so fun going out with her.

i wanna watch lord of dogtown, sky high and harry potter and the globet of fire!! =DD
the sims 2 nightlife is like so fun! annnnnnnnnnnndy, you there? lol. im gonna buy the disc later =) your sims can turn into vampires =/ andandand, there's love potion, you can buy cars, and visit your neighbours' house and stuffs. fun lah=)

decided to change blogskin again =] hurhur!

exams are FINALLY OVERRRR!!! x)) weehee~ im like so freaking happy. NO more stress. NO nothing. ey, actually still have. worrying about my results. think i'll get freaking lousy results and all. hais.

chinese listening compre was only for half and hour. lol. went to school at 8+ den reach home at 10+am. d0ts. went home to eat, bathe and slacked till around 1pm then went out to meet sylvia.
we took train to dhoby ghaut ( is that how you spell that? ). lol the trainride was so fun. we chatted about argumentive essays, about the stupid new chinese system with 11 comprehension passages and other stuffs. bought the ticket for corspe bride, then we went to the food court to eat. heheh. after that, sylvia wanted to buy candies so we went there, den we went into the cinema. show started at 2.25pm and ended at 3.38pm. quite nice lah but 1hour and 13minutes only. then we went SHOPPING! lol. window shopping i meant. went to ripcurl and someother shops. OMYGAAAAAAWSH. that ripcurl shirt is like so nice lah. damn. 32 bucks. budget. lol. then we went city link and walked.
went to the surfergirl shop with all the ripcurl/roxy stuffs inside. waliao! i want all those shirt and i want that wallet and that flipflops. darn!! cannot go out with sylvia already. she'll bring you to all these shops with all the nice nice clothes and you wont be able to resist temptations. so in the end, you'll buy all these stuffs. lol. NO OFFENCE SYLVIA =DD lol. sorry lah. hurhurs (: i want that orange nike dunk. i want that bag. i want this, i want that. i want all the things. im a friggin spoilt kid. hurhur. whatever. I WILL BUY ALL THE STUFFS I WANT TOMORROW WHEN I GO THERE AGAIN. EITHER TOMORROW OR SUNDAY. MUAHAHAHAHA! sylvia wanted to go to ben'sanddunnowhat to check that place out, saw victoria. lol. we ended up eating the mix-n-match ice cream there, $7.50. expensive but nice. this type of things, cannot budget one. LOL. i forgot whats the shop's name already. lol. sylvia and i were saying next time when we go out, we'll go try all the food. lol. next time we'll go sukae sushi, den blablah, den blablablah.. lol.
hahas. next time must do 100 crunches and 100 sit ups a day to tone up my stomach. woohoo~ crazy idea? nah. i dont think so=) took train back to bedok. lol. the train ride was so damn hilarious. we're like speaking english in british accent. so fun~ then i went to take taxi home and sylvia walked home. had so much fun today.

ive got to start saving money already. so when sylvia and i go out again, i'll buy allllllll the things that i want. lol. hey sylvia, dont forget. second last day of school =) 27 oct.

hey andy, i might hate some guys, but im definitely not a boy-hater x))

[ i wish for a little fairy land of my own.. ]

i just need to wait till thursday and there will be NO more papers! damned. why cant time past faster now?
ohyesohyes, i cant wait to go to my cousins' house this friday.
was doing some maths questions just now and i just gave up cause i dont know how to answer that question. why do i always give up? damned me.
i wanted to blog alot, but i forgot everything that i wanted to blog about. gosh, my memory is failing.
all i ever wanted is to escape from reality. hurhur. crazehh me.
read vanessa's blog just now and i found out that i have something in common with her. lol.

my wishlist.

• roxy slippers
• nike dunks
• get a m.s.g of 2.8
• good results
• be able to take amaths ( you guys will probably think that im mad )
• new handphone
• be a nicer person
• a laptop
• go to US cause i really wanna go there
• start a new life in US
• have a mind of my own
• stop being lazy
• sims 2 : nightlife
• go to princeton university.

hahas. the last wish is like some nonsense only. wont come true anyway. i think i should go for some anger management course. is there some kind of course on punctuality? lol. i always leave my house early but i end up reaching late whenever i meet my friends. hurhur(:

you didnt know how to care. so what if im imperfect? you NEVER bothered. burden.. thats what i am to you. you dont care. there's no turning back. the very worst part of you is me.

dont worry people, im not depress or anything. lol. im a happy girl, and always will be (: hurhurs. going off to memorise/study lit things alr.

[ my loneliness is killing me.. ]

have had tuition just now.
think that my tutor knew that i was distracted and all. hais.
thought about what he said.. whatever lah. i dont care about him anymore. i just care about studying and getting good grades.
i feel like im being suffocated and i cant breathe. i need to breathe.
living in this harsh reality world just sucked.
reality just sucks, dreamland is alot better. hurhurs(:
cant wait to go to my cousins' house this weekend, and i cant wait for exams to be over.
4 papers down, only 4 more to go.
no. actually 3 more to go cause chinese listening compre doesnt counts right? you dont have to study for that either. whatever.
good luck to everyone =)

maybe i should do some self reflection? hmm.

[ but you didnt understand.. ]

boys are just boys.
so girls out there, dont waste your time understanding boys. no offence to any boys out there. but its so fucking true.

i sooooooooo dont have a crush on him. not anymore. he;s a fucktard. and yes, i hate him. gosh.
fucking senseless ppl.
whatever.

crap.
i regretted what i did just now. i should not have jumped on my maid's mattress and jump onto my bed. its so damn bouncy, so fun. lol. if i didnt jump for the sake of fun, my bed will still be perfectly alright. like fuck lah. that bed's my darling ='( damned.

but nevermind. my father fixed it already. its alright now~ lol. the wood part broke i think :'(
anwyay, im back to studying science..

[ endless road.. ]

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO MAX!! =D
2 more days till End Of Year Exams start and im still slacking. whatever.
new blogskin. nice? =)
hey ryan! *beams. im a sleeper too(: lol.
have had nightmare when i slept in the after noon just now, and yesterday night ( been too tired.) 2 sweet dreams followed by 2 nightmares. wonder what will come next?

i will definitely fall for him if i see him again. he's like sooo hot, he's gorgeous and he's tall x)) i like tall guys and i do not know why. i know i will never get to see him again. hai..

i hate yuwei. no use asking me why, i just hate him. he IS such an ass. we used to be good pals but things changed. YOU( im refering to yuwei) said that i treated you like shit, like hello? who treated me badly first? if you treated me nicely, i will treat you the same way that you treat me, if you dont, d0nt blame me for treating you like shit. i cant said whose fault it is cause both of us are in the wrong. you smsed me saying that you were punished by your teacher and i replied :' its your fucking business, not mine. i dont fucking care.' then you started ignoring me and all, but heck. do you think that i even care? there's a reason for everything that happened, there's also a reason why i replied you like that. you ALWAYS tell me that girls want you to be their boyfriend.. like, WOW? do i even fucking care? no i dont. you're such a fucking flirt, having 2 girlfriends at one time. who you think you are? some rich playboy kid? fuck off. girls have feelings too. we're human too. not everyone is like you. you dont freaking care if your stead broke up with you or you broke up with her, but i think she does care. whatever laa. i dont fucking care about you, not anymore. we're no longer good pals, like what ive said, things had changed. we've lost it all, now its just too late. you cant wish for the past anymore, not anymore.. i hate you. just fuck off, fucktard.

im so sorry for using vulgarities. lol. must be like what bc said. must be gentle. bwahahhas!!

2 more days to english/science paper. man, im going to flunk science. i only passed science TWICE. i think? gonna mug like there's no tomorrow. i bet i'll slack instead of mugging. crap.

[ everything you do.. ]

dreamt of him yet again.
hais, we'll never be together.

exams are coming!! like fuck. i havent even study anything yet. going off to watch tv and mug already..

[ my anata.. ]

went to tm after school with sab. waited for bus 10 for like so damn long lah. uhhuh. lol. something funny happened in the bus and on our way to tm. shant blog abt it if not later sab kill me. uhhuh. we went to walk around, take neoprints (again) den we went to orchard, wisma. lol. walked to ngee ann city and all to meet my aunt and collect the superstar tickets. lalalas. ohya! saw jasmine and michelle in the train. lol. after collecting the tickets, we walked to spinelli. waliao. disgusting lah. was drinking my vanilla latte and then, i saw these super tiny ants on the tissue paper and the sugar pack. i almost scream my lungs out. lol. d0ts right? den, we went home and get ready. lol.

met van in bedok inter, den we went to tm AGAIN and saw jasmine AGAIN. lol. went to take neoprints AGAIN.. lol. lame. sab came, and we went to kfc for dinner. after dinner we went to singapore expo. lol. so many people lah. bwahah. saw louisa there. the concert was really nice.
kelly's songs are all nice. sin huey and her sister sing real nice too. weilian's cool. hahas. william, junyang, derrick and wei choong are so cute. lol. the concert ended around 11+, and we headed home. lol. took the mrt to tanah merah, then sab accompanied me to the taxi stand to wait for taxi. like fuck lor, so many ppl cutting queue. fucktards. selfish fucktards. they didnt even waited in the taxi queue, den they wanna cut queue. fuckers. waited for the taxi for like so fucking long can? around 40 mins cause so many ppl on call for cabs and s0 many fucktards cutting queue. no offence to anyone. reached home around 12.40am. bwahah.

anyway, forgotted that today's children's day. hahas. september ended so fast. so quickly. hais, i didnt even know that its the starting of a new month. who cares? i only knew that today's 1st of october when i heard the church bells at 12noon. lol.

why do i always dream of HIM? im tiredd` hais. dreaming of him, knowing that i'll never be with him. sweet dreams dont come true. do they?

exams coming already. 5 more days. im still slacking..

[ wake me up when september ends... ]

hey!
im blogging in school at computer lab. woohoo. so fun. lol. just finished doing the QSE survey. now ruo ning's announcing the 7D6N or 14D13N Chinese language enrichment learning organized by the shanghai university. sounds exciting? lol. but i dont understand chinese. go there study waste money! eurgh. blog again when im home! tata.
going out with van and sab in the night to watch the superstar concert@ =)

[ memories from the past is haunting me.. ]