`love me cause i love you.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO CONSTANCE!!! =D
chinese test today. SO GOING TO FAIL. think i'll get 30+ only. or 40+. so difficult. den tmrw still got the chinese express paper.. to see who can qualify to take express chinese. like wth lor. slept at 3+am yesterday night coz i was turning and tossing on my bed. was thinking of something, yeah. woke up at 6.40am. hahas, ive been waking up late recently. too tired.
anyway, during 7 habits today, learnt quite lots of stuffs.
must be a PROACTIVE person, and not a REACTIVE person. cannot say :" i cant do it", and must say : " i can do it". hahahas.
w-h-a-t-e-v-e-r.
tmrw's PSL photo taking!! lol. so fast, its coming to the end of the month. hais. cannot slack alr. must work hard..
owell, I WANNA WATCH GONE WITH THE WINDS and MOULIN ROUGE!!!
bryan went back early in the morning today, thats like so sad.. aww, have to wait for one more year.. no patience. lol. tata

[ somewhere over the rainbow. ]

HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY TO ZOEY, MY BELOVED COUSIN!!! =D
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO WILLIAM!!! =D

bryan's going back tmrw.. aww, thats sad=(
been sofa-less for the past one week=( will be sofa-less till next sat i think? hais.
oh ya, watched The Outsiders today, ITS SO NICE!!! so touching. the Greasers are HOT. ponyboy, johnny and dally are cute.. hahas=D but they skip alot of parts. didnt show how they got jumped on and stuffs..
anyway, chinese test tmrw, that sucks.
wish me luck anyway..

[ this is not a mistake. ]

wo0hoo. have had fun for the past few days=D
19o7o5 ; tuesday
DnT wasnt boring today, hahas. first time seh=D
ling and i took bus 13 to marine parade there, somewhere outside the library, and walk all the way to parkway parade's hotel Mecure to meet bryan. -__-''. just to find out from kai that his not in the hotel. hahas. ling and i were in the toilet when bryan's mother came to find us. didnt get to see her coz' i was in the toilet cubicle=D lol. hahas.. but she sounds nice=) she asked us if we were bryan's friends and we said yes. she even asked us to join them in the restaurant on da second floor with kai. hahahas. but we didnt. bryan called kai's phone, den we talked to him. he ask us to go over to parkway parade to meet him. lol.. i told him we're stuck outside the hotel coz it's raining.. but still, we went there. lame right? kai stayed in the hotel with bryan's parents. man, tell u, the hotel is damn cool lah=D uh huh. met bryan, man, he've turned DArk. -__-''. looks abit different from far.. he's with his Pastor. yep. went to mosburger to eat, den waited for kai to come. after that, went to the polyclinic to find daniel.. hahas=D did quite some stuffs together, den at arnd 5.40pm, ling and i left. reached home at like 6.10pm. uhhuh.. bryan's going to malaysia in the night, and only coming back on saturday..
but he;s going back to america on thursday. yep, next thursday. so sadd=(

20o7o5 ; wednesday
school was okay today.. history lesson was practically boring coz vanessa wasnt sitting beside me today=( she went for the canoeing comp. yepp. no lame jokes, no laughter, no lame asses. the whole lesson was sooooooo boring. WAH, SIAN. tmr alessia and vanessa wont be sitting beside me during art. ARGHH. sucks. means i have to sit alone with one whole row of guys.. why do we have to sit in register number? aww..=( thats like so sad lah. depressing. haha. after homework time, humairah and i went to TM to buy something. saw Hadi and some other ex-temasekian. yep, walk around den go home. took the same bus as momok. hahas, humairah told me that momok is half-malay ; half-egyptian. hmm, dont believe. dont look like. hahas.
learn a new word from aisya.. lol. vague. i wonder how u pronounce that? lol.. oh well, you learn something new everyday=)
have been sleeping at 9.53pm everyday since monday, im still tired. *yawns.
got to go already, byebye!! =D

[ when im alone, i feel so much better. ]

psl; proj-teens photoshoot today. hahas, so fun! lol. some people didnt turn up. only 3 sec 4s turn up. caroline, william and wen bin. william gave us a goodbye card i think? yeah.. took tons of photos, den after that we went to parkway parade to wash the photos and to eat. went to the food court to eat, but i wasnt hungry at all, so i didnt eat. bwahhas. then i went home and stoned. lol.

during thursday's history lesson, vanessa were like telling me lame jokes and i kept laughing. hahas..
V : what mouse walks with 2 legs?
me : mickey mouse.
V : what duck walk with 2 legs?
me: donald duck.
V : wrong. ALL ducks walk on 2 legs.
then she kept laughing. -__-" hahas. still got some other lame ones lah. lol.

yesterday was Racial Harmony Day. hmm, shirley and i are the only chinese in our class that wore a costume. we both wore the malay costume. lol. took tons of photos. when i went to the canteen in the morning, its like.. wAH! so colourful. see already eyes also pain. lol. some people wore really nice and cool costumes. hahas, some sec 4 guys even wore girls costume! LOL.
so yea, hahas. after school, went out with xin yi. haha. so fun=D and yea, bryan came back yesterday night.. lol.

oh well, i gotta go already. see ya~
[ knocking on Heaven's door. ]

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO PEANUT BITCH - MARTIN!!!=D

hahas, have been his neighbour and know him for like nearly a decade, and only lately, i know its his birthday today. lol. how slow can i be?

2 more days and bryan's coming back! lol=D
hmm.. lol.

school was okay i guesS? bernice was being practically mad today, kept laughing and laughing and laughing. lol. during history was like damn funny. we're like talking about singapore stuffs.
me: singaporeeeeeee.
bern : our homelanddddddddd.
vanessa : this is where we belonggg.
den bernice kept laughing like nuts. and she began singing :" malaysia, thru e asiaaaaaaaa". damn funny lah. lol. stupid right. lol.

after homework time, waited till 4pm, then meeting starts. gonna elect new chairman, vice -chairmen, secretary, treasurer and sec 2 EXCOS. lol. cool right? lol. bought new PSL shirt. its black. and the colours are unique. but i prefer the white one. much more better and nicer=/ yep. after meeting, went to TM with xin yi den parents came to fetch me home. ahahs=D yeah.
uhhuh, hmm. im VERY tired now, so yeah, goodbye for now.=)

[ her world has change, she ask God why. ]

im not okay.



im not o-fucking-kay.


[im not okay.]

heard from jiakai that bryan's comning back on friday night at 11pm?
hmm..

ohwell.
[so predicatble.]

my english suck like shit.
i'll never be able to post an entry in good english.
oh well..

[our smiles will not turn sour and our laughter will not be forgotten. ]

stayed at home and stoned the whole day. lol.
heard from douglas they got the new timetable today. PE is on friday now? science on monday tuesday and wednesday? darn. i hate it.
homework only got literature worksheet and history worksheet. lol. lucky.
parents going to Australia; Perth tomorrow.. and my bro and i arent going, that suck. they said that we can go.. but none of my aunt's and uncle's kids are going.. so we're not going too. need to get home early for something. yeps. tomorrow's gonna be a fast day. no science, no chinese. hahas=D art lesson for first four periods, followed by recess. maths for one period, FC one period, then AL/ENG for two periods and we're dismissed!!
gonna head home straight after school. lol. =D
gotta go already, tata~=D love.

[ feel good. ]

im sick. kept coughing and sneezing nonstop in class. felt very tired in class, found it difficult in concentrating on what the teachers are saying. asked mrs loke if i can go home, she said after school then i can go.
when i reach home, my maid followed me to the doctor. yep. waited for like 45 minutes? -__-". lol. got a MC for tomorrow.
darn, tomorrow we got literature. EURGH. >=( hope that they dont do much coz they only got 1 period. and hope that i dont miss too much of it. lol.
so yea, im going off to rest now, cya! ciao. =D

[ be strong believe. ]

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO RYAN!!=D
alright, school simply sucks today. lol. coz i was sick and very tired.
although i slept for like so long yesterday, i still felt very very tired. almost fainted during PE just now. hahas=D was sneezing through out maths lesson. my eyes were swollen too. hahas=D
anyway, i got to go already! so yeah, cya! love.

[my dreams they got to kiss, cause i dont get sleep.. no.]

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY TO RAIHAN(JR)!!=D

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO PRESIDENT NATHAN!!=D

YEAH! balloon day is finally over!! woohoo` lol. okays, hahas. im like damn tired now=( lol.

saturday [first day].

went to TM to meet xinyi. lol. saw james over there, we chatted awhile, then xinyi and i went to find farewell cards for caroline and william. hahas=D we shopped for like so long, then we finally found one nice one for william. hahas. its like so cute? lol. then we shopped for like another 10 mins, we found caroline's card. its even cuter! lol. then i called william to say that xinyi and i will be late for the meeting. xinyi and i went to take taxi to school.. haha, when we reach school and went up to den, not many people are there. only some. heard from the seniors that some will only be coming in the late afternoon or at night. lol. yeah. we did lots of stuffs.

in the night, we pack all the stuffs. carry all the tins and bring to AVT, the packets of balloons, pumps and black trash bags. lol. although its very tiring, its like so fun! hahas=D at arnd 11+pm, mr oh came. he gave the guys money to buy roti pratas for us. hahahas=D all the boys when except for william and reuben. they stayed back to help us. at arnd 11.45pm, mr oh gave us briefing and stuffs. yep. its liek abt 45 mins? lol. hahas, yeah. while waitinf for the boys to be back, we pack all the transparent trash bag stuffs. 40 per class, and we put them in the hall, on the floor. hahas=D when the boys came back, we went to eat and stuffs. lol. after eating, the rest of the committee went to do the billboard thingy while nikita, nuriman, william and i stayed in the staff lounge to do the paperwork. lol. did for ALL classes. was like so fun.. hahahas=D after using rubber band adn bundle them all up, for each and every class, william and i took them and put them in AVT. after doing that, we went up to the den. by that time, its like arnd 3+am already? lol. yeah, so i went to sleep. shared the mattress with huiwen and nikita. lol.=D

sunday [second day]

YEAH! ITS BALLOON DAY!! =D the day has yet to arrive. lol=D woke up at 5am sharp thanks to nuriman's phone alarm clock? lol. went to brush teeth and stuffs. nuriman said that the transparent trash bags that are lying on the floor of the hall, looks like dead bodies. -__-". hahahas. at arnd 7am,went to AVT for briefing. lol. adam bought breakfast for ALL projteens members!!=D lol. at arnd 7.30am, we went to the classes that we're allocated to. lol. uhhuh.. xin yi and i went to 1R. 0401. have to carry so many things and have to climb up to the top level, that was like nuts? lol.=D their class was terribly noisy. lol. have to shout, so that they can listen to what you are saying. hahas, taught them how to make sword balloon sculptures. lol=D the girls were all very well behaved and stuffs, while the guys are being playful and noisy. lol. they use those balloon thingy and shoot each other. like wth-__-". lol. at arnd 11+am, the whole school, except ALL psls and some councillers went out of school to sell balloons. hahas. at arnd 1+pm, we went to botanic garden! lol.=D duty started at arnd 3.30pm? yeah. lol. si lei and i were in the same place as khairul, rahman and shu li. lol. so funny seh. HAHa=D yeah. lol. we kept saying:" hello, good afternoon/evening. welcome! have a nice day.. goodbye. see you again."... lol. and we have to stand up. after like 2 hours or so, my feet began to ache. lol.=/ at arnd 6.05pm, i went to see the concert, and i saw sly. wasnt really interested, so i left and went back to do my duty. lol. uhhuh. the senior citizens are soooooooo friendly. lol=D left botanic garden at arnd 7pm and took the maha bodhi school bus back! bus 1 some more! =D the uncle havent forget me yet! whhhheeeeeeeeee~ lol. uhhuh. reached sch at around 7.45pm? yeah. went up to den for awhile, then went down again. huiwen asked if i wanted to go and have dinner with them.. i was like starving, so i went with them lo. lol=Dwent to TM mac and eat half a packet of fries. lol.. den i went back to school with anavil at 10pm. i was like so scared and stuffs, so i ask anavil to pei me go back. lol=D hahas. uh huh. said goodbye to anavil, then i went in to the meeting room to count the coins and arrange them nicely. lol. first time ever in my life, i have seen so MANY coins and notes on the table. lol=/ hahas. we made 16000+ balloon sculptures and earned around $17000+. cool eh? lol. den we went to have a mini farewell party for william and caroline. its like so sad lor =( their last big project, and they are leaving already.. boohoo='( im gonna miss them like nuts! =( so sad. we gave william and caroline their farewell cards and scratch cards, then someone bring out the farewell cake. lol.. caroline got so emo and started tearing? lol. hais.. mr oh ordered canadian pizza for us too! lol. after eating, went back to count money. nuriman was so tired that he started falling asleep. reuben and william too.lol. then later, we all feel so tired that we rested for awhile and mr oh had to come in shouting :"FIRE! FIRE". like dots?-__-". hahas, then everyone except nuriman, reuben and william woke up. lol.i was liek so tired that i put my head down and rested. i rested for like 10 minutes then caroline woke me up and asked me if i wanted to bathe, so i went to bathe lor. lol. xinyi left at 11+pm. =( and clara left at 1+am. lol=D after bathing, we went back to meeting room and count money. lol. james was so nice! he help me make one cup of coffee. lol=D hahas. caroline started falling asleep.. me too. i only woke up at like 2+am? lol. then heard that we made alot of money and broke record. lol=D at around 3+am, caroline and i was so tired that we went up to den to sleep first.. yawns. we slept at.. 4am? yeah.. lol=D

monday [third day]

youth day holiday. lol.=D woke up at 9.10am? yep. went to brush teeth, went back to den, pack my stuffs and left at arnd 10.25am. lol. anyway, TAG is really good. lol. good luck for your comp on thursday!! =D yeah. reached home at arnd 10.40am, watched tv, then i sleep at 11am. planned to wake up at 11.30am to do homework, but instead, i woke up at 1+pm .lol. i kinda wasted my whole day away coz i was like, sleeping and wake up. den sleep and wake. lol=D

to PROJTEENS members: just wanna let you know that you guys totally rock my world. i know its sad that william and caroline are leaving, and it will seem rather strange without them in meetings. but yeah, continue to ROCK ON!! I LOVE YOU GUYS!! =D

to William and Caroline : man, you guys just rock! thanks for making balloon day happen. thanks for sacrificing your time. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING YOU'VE GIVEN TO US. you guys are the best seniors ever ='( william : we'll mourn for the loss of your grandfather..

anyway, im very tired already.. going off to sleep again=D good night, tata!

[whats the worst thing i can say?]

time flies really fast. its the end of the month again.
tomorrow's my cousin's birthday. lol. she's turning 17. hahas. its like, yesterday was the starting of school year? lol. anyway, school have been OK. only that i cant write that well coz of my thumb. lol. heard that 3rd of july is President Nathan's birthday? lol. its balloon day as well! and he'll be there? hahaha! no idea. i dont really care anyway. anyway, as i said, BALLOON DAY is coming soon! omygosh. im so excited? haha. ALL projteens members gonna stay in sch from saturday afternoon to monday morning. lol. cool. hahas=D cant wait.

Its gonna be the last time that caroline and william are gonna incharge of anything. they're leaving... boohoo=( so sad. hais. that kinda sucks. they're both so good. too bad their o' levels coming.. hais. psl-projteens meeting without caroline and william and the rest of the sec 4[s] will be like so strange. no one to tease, no one to joke with. hahas.

mrs tan and mr yusoff's last day today. they gonna retire already =( so sad right? oh ya, bryan the office boy (is that how you spell his name?) is leaving too. like everyone's leaving? thats so sad=( i asked bryan why he's leaving, and this is what he said :
me:" why are you leaving?"
bryan:" coz i need to move, i need to find a job, a higher pay."
me:"why?"
bryan:" coz need to move lor."
me:" oh, so sad.. hahas"
bryan:" haha, if anything, you can get my number from ruoning kkay?"
me:" orh."
lOL. hahas. he's nice lah. lol.
anyway, im so sad! mrs tan's leaving!! arghhhhh! >=( NOOOO! lol. she's my former form teacher. man, MRS THERESA TAN ROCKS! she's the best form teacher ever =D hahas.

i just read william's blog. i feel like crying.. this is what he typed :
"Soon came the time when students are informed of the big event. Many signed up mainly due to the low fees to pay and interesting concept. The committee was delighted. The committee suggested many ideas to keep the excitement level soaring. As such, during this time, the committee began to gel; a form of bond is formed. It was not obvious but he was sure everyone could sense why the committee has been doing well and members contributing and sharing with the committee. He knew; the next generation of his committee will have a bright future in front of them."
---> this is only one of the paragraph from his long post. its really very very touching.
To any projteens members, please go and read it. =D

going off already, tata! cya. love.

[ A melancholy town where we never smile. ]