`love me cause i love you.

boredom reeeeeeeeeally reeeeeeeeeeeeeally kills me.

vany and wilfred went home during recess. bwahhh)= Physical Education was fun luh! haha. run again! (: walao, so unfair luh. some people cheat one! never even run 4 rounds. *grumble grumble* regina, wilfred and i ran 4 rounds together. haha. fun luh. we were like talking, running, jogging, walking.. blablabla. hahas(: while other people are playing games, ruo ning, wilfred, vany and i went up to hall to do high jump. lol. so fun, i hurt my butt. and it hurts. blue black i think? ouch.

chinese was cool!wahahah, mdm ma was like telling us our tears are salty. then yi ning said :' if normal people's tears are salty, then those people with diabetics how? their tears are sweet? '
LOL. the whole class errupted into loud laughters. haha. no offense to anyone ah.

so yea, vany and wilfred went home during recess. they looked fine during p.e? and we were having sooo much fun. hahas. i hope we go to physics lab again tomorrow! at least in physics lab i can sit with khaizal. i dont want to go class for physics lesson. i'll be sitting alone coz zuhdee not going to school tmr)= physics test was difficult luh. stupid. im failing all my common tests. fuck it. screw it. during physics was like so malu luh. i dropped the lens and miss W T had to say :' oooooooooh. my lens!' every one in class turn around and look at me. malu sia. shybree said that i was blushing. no i wasnt! :b
once again i topped maths paper 1. haha! (: i think i get 6/15 or what only. really bad but still can top. lol. paper 2 highest score was only 3marks. damn. this shows that my class is really lousy in maths. no offense la. i mean, out of the 2 classes and 3 groups : Mrs hong's group, Ms Tracy lim's group and Ms Leong's group, ours is the lousiest.. hais.

during I.S i had to sit alone cause dzul needs to go find Mrs Hong to take his maths test or something.
then mdm yeo came and said :' qiu jin, did you study for your P.O.A test?'
me : ' yeah, i did. '
-then she broke the news and told me that i was the only failure in P.O.A. failed by 1.5 marks.- see luh, im so stupid. then during the whole period, i was brooding over my P.O.A marks and thinking. i was damn moody luh. after I.S, i went to tell mdm yeo some stuffs.

i was like :' Mdm yeo...'
she :' i think i want to move you to the front during P.O.A lessons '
me :' hey! i was thinking about that too! like that, then i can concentrate better. '
she :' yes.'
me :' i dont care if i have to sit with all the stupid boys, but i want to pass P.O.A. is there anything i can do to pull my grades up? '
she : ' yes. -talk and talk and talk -

she's like telling me that she doesnt want me to be the only one sitting for N Levels POA since everyone's going for the thru-train thingy. hais. imagine me sitting down alone in the middle of the hall doing POA paper. all around me are tables and chairs. ha.

yes, it was some thing like that luh. gawdamnshit. i need to pass ALL subjects and get really really good grades. for fuckin's sake. if i dont do well, i'll just have to say goodbye to my march hols):

i've been damn moody these days. i told benchow that ' i dont crap as much as before already. ' and when he ask why, i said.. cause dont crap le lor. in class sit down there day dream and keep quiet. some times noisy luh. haha. hais.

i read my past diaries yesterday. so saddening to find out that im no longer the girl i used to be. ya know? the sunshine girl and all. the girl who goes high almost everyday. crap nonstop. well, im certainly not like that anymore. but really, who cares? no one luh. maybe you people who read this should ignore all these fucking shit.

everybody's sick. first zuhdi didnt come to school. then now vany, wilfred and shu han..
i think im gonna fall sick soon. stupid block nose. eurgh.

andandand i will never forget how he broke my heart. all the stupid lies.. even though it all happened 2 years ago, i still remember it clearly.

fking shit. i always get writers block. damn. i forget what i want to blog about. arghh! oh wells. maybe i'll just go and do my homework or something.

oh yes, before i go.. yesterday, i found out that only 7% of the population are lefties. im was supposeed to be one of the 7%. but nevermind.

police like to ask you :' whats your problem' but really they could not even solve your problem. and why do armpit hair doesnt have split ends? haha. today's morning digest. damn funny luh, lol.

HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY ZUHDI!! (:

this gotta be one of the longest post. cool man! haha!
oh well, somebody please be my escape..



maybe i should stop all these whinings=(



okay, really gotta go do homework alr. and i want to play mahjong! ha. toodles - love.