`love me cause i love you.

ive decided to blog again. ha ha.

overall results
EL=59/100
MT( chinese )=57/100
Maths=38/100
Science=51/100
Geog=43/100
History=40/100
Lit=63/100
D&T=56/100
Homec=65/100
Visual Arts=80/100

Total:552/100 Class Position:19/38
Percentage=55.2 Level Position:35/78
Attendance:163/175

i agree with my mom. what shitty results is this? and i didnt know that i missed school for like 12 days? maybe teacher see wrongly. hah. whatever.

quarreled with my mom yesterday. everything is like so drama. i was watching the VCD of idol drama series, Wang Zi Bian Qing Wa ; Prince who turns into a Frog when my father had to come in and pluck out all the wires of the TV and DVD player. like what the hell? you said you wanted to sleep. then why do you still play mah-jong just now? i wouldnt even go to your room to watch if you havent play mah-jong. and mother, why do you complain so much?! the volume is already so soft, you still had to scold me for being deaf. wth.. you all play mahjong, its like 10 TIMES LOUDER CAN? BLOODY HELL. its always like that. NOT FAIR. even brother agrees with me.

stupid. just because i shouted at you in your face, does that means that you have to come and hit me?2 TIMES WITH THE BLOODY REMOTE CONTROL YOURE HOLDING? FUCKYOU. it HURTS okay? but im just too cold blooded to feel any pain. hahahs! i said i wanted to run away from home, you say its okay, if i wanna run, i should have run last night. YEA. i agree. i should have run away from the fucking house yesterday night. you think i dont want to? HAH. you threaten to throw away all my stuffs. like come on lah, throw lor. do i even care? hohoho. who cares?!

why did dad give me 5 bucks this morning? HAH. i think my parent's are abit like steve ( from the outsiders )'s father. only its that my mom chases me out of the house, and my dad giving me 5 bucks as if nothing has happened. hah. when you came home this afternoon, you [mom] treated it as if nothing has happened. you can do so, but i cant. you even have to be such a big mouth to tell your friends about the fight we have last night. ohplease.. whatever. you think i dont know what you're saying? hah. WHATEVER.

its just too late already. EVERYTHING THAT YOU THOUGHT I WOULD BE, HAS FALLEN APART RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU. im just too lazy to go into details about what had happened..

my blog is always full of anger/jealousy/sadness. whatever.

i am lost. i dont know which direction to go anymore. stop pushing me over the edge. i dont care about anyone, anymore. call me selfish, call me cold blooded. i dont fucking care. im sick of feeling so left out. im stuck inside a world i hate, im sick of everyone around. with the big fake smiles and stupid lies.. damned. they always say time heals your wound, i dont think so. no one can heal my wound. im bleeding deep inside. i cant breathe. give me some space..

whatever! hah hah hah. >=(

im the imperfect girl who never will be perfect. like nuriman, i envy the lifestyles of those ppl in the tv series. their life is soo carefree and they have freedom. everything seems to be perfect. lol. i wish for a fairy tale life of my own.

MING DAO IS SO HANDSOME! HAHAHS=D in-love with ming dao. lol. if only my life is like Ye Tian Yu's life and there's always a prince charming to save me whenever im in trouble. lol.

IF ONLY

IF ONLY

IF ONLY.

let me dream on, im living in my lala-dreamland(:

my eyes are puffy from all the crying last night. lol

OHYA, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANAVIL! :D

[ baby, now i need you by my side.. ]